When I found out I was going to be a dad, I was scared at first. But then I got excited.
Of course, my wife and I had been trying to conceive and had always planned on starting a family. I guess it was around August or September of the previous year (2020) that we began to try.
At the time, I felt like we were in for an uphill battle. It seems like all you hear about online and in the news is the difficulty people have when it comes to having children (particularly if you’re a hair over 30). Each month, there would be the anticipation and feeling and honestly, hope that we had finally made some magic happen.
But then my wife’s cycle would begin and we would be back to the lab to try again once more. This was fine the first month or two (I mean, who expects to nail it on the first try?), but then it seemed to almost feel like a failure. Like there was something wrong. I was almost starting to feel like we would need some kind of help to keep from becoming worn down by the process.
Then, one day, as I was heading out the door to walk the dog, my wife pounded down the stairs in our home. As I was tying my shoe, she threw a pregnancy test down to my feet, right in front of my eyes.
“What does this mean?!” was all I could manage. Why do they make those things so indecipherable? Or is it just the rush of the moment that makes something so simple seem so complex?
At that moment, I felt my life change. The world, and my place in it, would never be the same. It’s safe to say I was a little bit scared.
Honestly though, I felt a major surge of emotion and a sense of accomplishment. It’s hard to believe that we had actually achieved what we set out to do. It was early February 2021 when we found out baby was on the way. We took a walk together, and discussed all of our plans and dreams for the future, knowing now they would be just that much more real.
We’re about 20 weeks in to our pregnancy right now, so half way there. I plan to keep writing about our experience through pregnancy, brith, and *gulp* actually having the kid! I hope to have you along for the ride too, so keep checking back for updates.